Anyways. Lately it's been photographers. So i've been spending a lot of time right before bed, all fueled up on ambien looking at wedding portfolios. and you know what? I WANT A WEDDING! I just want to have a dress and a groom and a gorgeous sawtooth backdrop and a photo to take it all in. I dont necessarily want to be married. I guess, just a good picture of me in a gown in the mountains. Doesn't everyone?
Plus, looking at these pics makes me think that romantic love really does exist. It's like Jesus or the Easter Bunny, just b/c I've not personally seen or experienced it doesn't mean that it's meant for others to have and believe it. Right?
I've dated a little in the past, I'm not too jaded and I think that a person reading my list of don't wants would be more surprised I'm not lying in a ditch somewhere instead of being single in salt lake.
Based on my true life dating history I do not want to experience again anyone who is:
homeless
jobless (b/c of being lazy, not the independently wealthy kind)
phoneless
carless
a crack whore
living in a van
waiting for his "true love" so they can conceive only days after we no longer see each other
waiting for his "true love" only to find out she's awful and he should have stayed with me
someone that takes a vegetarian to a meat-only restaurant
someone that doesn't drink at all
someone that drinks too much, like all the time, like a functioning alcoholic
someone that points out where he was conceived on our first date
someone that doesn't realize how lucky he is to be out on a date with me.
Here's the kicker, most every single one of the list items came from a DIFFERENT dude. Seriously.
my dating life sucks. its not going to get better living in a place where the last pick up line i got was "so....how do you feel about married guys?"
Fuck my life.
